The Last 6 Months, Pt. 1

Of course, I just want to reveal what I have been up to for the last 6 months, partially because some people that read this blog aren’t necessarily in my life every day, but also because I want to give an excuse for why I haven’t been posting much. Besides working at my church, I took on a par-time job at my school as well going to school full-time. Honestly, the job was more than just part-time. God was very gracious to me in letting me be a part of a creation of a House of Prayer. The one at school is called the Gordon Lindsay House of Prayer. You can go here to our humble site to learn more about it. I am a part-time coordinator for the HOP and it is a lot of fun as I feel it is what has called me to in this time in my life. There has been a lot of changes in my life in the last 6 months and I will attempt to share. Here is video highlights from the HOP: 

The most powerful thing on earth

This sums up my life calling right now:

Prayer does not fit us for the greater works, prayer is the greater work.
- Oswald Chambers

Seems to be the trend…

As my previous post suggested, prayer can only be sustained and enjoyed by a God that gives us the grace to. Many people have different opinions about what God is doing in the earth today, and which religious movement is at the forefront, etc…

I would have to tip my hat towards this movement. This video is worth ten minutes of your time:

I can’t.

I started summer school today. If you are interested, my main two classes are Doctrine of Salvation and Philippians. This means I will be acquiring a head full of knowledge on Luther and Calvin and the age old discussion of predestination vs. salvation by faith and works. I tend just to stick with Philippians 2:12, “…work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.”

It also means that I am starting up a new semester of prayer and intercession ministry. I am looking forward to leading it. God has been so good in promoting me to this position apart from my weak and broken self. It was an experience last semester, a time of growing. Prayer is a mysterious thing.

I would have to say the first key that I discovered was that I, in and of myself, cannot make a good prayer time. It is simply beyond the realm of possibility. It is foolishness for anyone to think otherwise. (If you want to honestly encounter God.)

This has revolutionized our corporate times of prayer but my personal times of prayer as well. I cannot in my dull, weak frame bring myself into encounter with this beautiful man, Jesus. All I can do is set myself in the place of prayer and whisper “I love you”. The hardest part truly is the “setting”. I use the word “set” because it is a positioning of yourself physically and positioning of your heart. In all transparency, I have never really walked out this quieting oneself and seeking God. My hypocritical-self liked to talk about the majesty of it and the intimacy of it with God. I have only really discovered it recently.

But you, when you pray, go into your room, and when you have shut your door, pray to your Father who is in the secret place… -Matthew 6:6

Why is setting ourselves in this secret place so difficult? It is because again we cannot make a good prayer time. You can strive for it. That is how I used to do it. My zeal and energy could only take me so far in the place of prayer. Until I came into the reality of my own spiritual barrenness and everything changed. I can’t do it. It takes God to love God. His Spirit within me drawing me in deeper in this relationship. My Father was already in the secret place waiting. It is just awesome to think that He is always waiting for us to step into the secret place. We have assurance that He is always there. It is a holy initiation from the very throne of God. We only have to engage even in our spiritual dullness and weakness.

This was a little scatterbrained but I hope you enjoyed.

-Jason